MIDNIGHT!/ Friday, June 09, 2006
haiz.. these 2 days got leadership training.. but its more lyk friendship camp.. learnt alot these 2 days.. at 1st dun feel lyk gg.. then after tt.. i find it veri meaningful n fun.. those hu skipped it ah.. too bad 4 u.. rich kids.. pay 4 it still nv go.. hor... ern** n sar**.. guess wat? ive cried on both days.. so unlike me.. the 1st day(ytd).. we played a few short games tt have lessons to be learnt at the end... at 1st lyk quite stupid la.. the games.. the last game veri scary.. we r supposed to stand on the table n speak abt how impt our goals r to us... n halfway thru, the cards will be flashed 4 the audience to react to.. (eg. rowdy crowd, dating couples, uninterested.. etc.) so.. u'll receive full attention 4 the 1st min of ur speech then the next, suddenly no one is listening to u.. after the speech the audience r supposed to raise up their hands if they feel tt ur goal is real n impt to u..
4 me.. i was afraid of heights.. so when i was on the table i was trembling alot.. not bcos of having to speak in the public but cos of the heights.. i tried not to tink abt the heights n concentrate on the speech.. ok.. i din speak well n got oni 2 votes.. (btw.. my goal was: to complete my hol hw by this hol..) n those 2 voted 4 me cos it applies to them too.. :) thx ah.. after i got down my legs r still wobbly n my eyes became watery.. n again.. its not bcos of the speech n lack of votes.. but the heights.. bad experience? gd experience? i dunno..
the next day..(today) we had to do the trust fall.. we can choose whether or not to go thru it.. when i 1st saw the no. of chairs.. immediately i tot NO... then after tt.. i saw my klsmates giving alot of support to the 'fallers' then i tot.. ok.. maybe i shud give it a try.. then when its closer to my turn.. it was yes.. no.. yes.. no.. yes... all the way till my turn.. then when they asked me to make my choice.. i paused... looked at the chairs, chickened out.. then said.. 'i choose not to do it'.. mans.. ive let down my klsmate.. im the oni one hu chose not to.. n u noe wat? after my turn the game stopped.. argh.. if i noe i shud choose to go later.. anw.. i din noe tt my fear of heights is greater than i tot.. 06s21.. im sry 4 not choosing to go.. n i assure u tt its DEFINITELY not bcos i dun trust u all.. i trust u all..but its bcos i dun trust myself.. n i have veri little confidence in myself.. then during the buddy talk.. i cried.. a little at 1st.. cos of the tot of the heights n letting my klsmates down.. but after tt i was abt to tell sh abt my other big fear.. then when i tink abt tt other big fear.. i started crying EVEN more.. took me a long time b4 i could blurt tt other fear out.. ... so.. in other words.. i cried so much.. mainly is bcos of tt 2nd fear.. ... stupid rite.. oh.. n oso... maybe the other reason y i din attempt the fall is cos i feel veri weird receiving so much support n care frm ppl.. in the past.. hardly anyone would care.. i sort of grew up in an environment where ppl dun care abt u.. pri sch frens.. siblings... until sec sch then not tt bad.. kor(da ge).. i tink u noe wat i mean.. n yup.. my kls is a great kls.. n i dare say tt all of us will excel in our studies if we kip up wif this spirit.. ALL..after tt.. we went 4 lunch.. but i din eat.. no appetite.. (hu will have appetite after crying??) then we made hearts n stars using straws 4 the facilitators.. then we played this spider web game where all of us will have to support each other OVER the web w/o touching the strings in 3 hrs.... we were rather disorganised la.. 1st hr we managed to get 9 ppl into the web.. but none across.. 2nd hr.. we did alot of aimless discussion... the last hr... we were more focussed.. n its oni in the last half hr we got FOURTEEN ppl across.. when our target was FIVE! woohoo! all of us din expect tt la.. i tot 5 was barely achieveable(dunno how to spell) n we did 14! woohoo! according to the facilitators we were extremely focussed.. n slow.. in the gd way la.. but i still tink tt all of us still got this indecisive prob... we always come to an agreement/ decision veri slowly.. after tt game we danced the fun dance! woohoo! so fun! n i screamed quite alot oso.. :)anw.. in all.. i had fun these 2 days.. din realised the time... it flew veri fast.. 4 both days.. n we've all learnt alot.. n our kls bonded much more than b4..
ok. tt's all. back to my drama. woohoo! 06s21 rawks!
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Shan crapped again at:
10:30 PM <3
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